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2009-06-06T11:40:00.001+08:00

updates!

2007-07-06T00:15:00.000+08:00

hi guys,

i am back finally.. sorry to keep u guys waiting.. cos i do get fed up with the blogging system.. need to sign in with google email.. so ma fan..

its such a long time i last blog..

yup.. graduated from tp.. now waiting for NTU.. got into biological sciences.. but when i tink of the distance i need to travel.. its really tiring.. so so so far.. oh well.. life's like that..

failed my TP once.. so saddening.. but haiz its over..

working at carlton hotel lobby lounge now.. getting some money b4 uni starts.. $$$$$$$$... $_$

had a wonderful lunch and dinner with baby on my bday.. thanks baby.. u are being loved by me! muacks..

*sometimes i feel i am not perfect.. with too much flaws..

*ponders............

long long hello again!

2007-02-25T18:04:00.000+08:00

hi guys!

sorry to keep u guys waiting.. its been two months plus since my last post.. sorry!
maybe u guys are tuning in anymore.. haha.. nvm.. i shall type down wad i did recently..

term tests are over.. i had graduated in another words..
found jobs? yepp! but not lab jobs.. they are mundane and seriously routine..
u shld noe eling... she cant stay still for so many hours juz pressing buttons..
i will go crazy seriously!

found retail jobs.. all at novena.. near baby's hse..
its easier for me to see him u see.. lols..
one is selling korea clothes, the other selling french watches..
if i were to choose.. i will choose the french watch one..
high pay short hours..

hmm.. been delirium for awhile since my last paper..
shld i get a decent fulltime job or go to uni?
i still cant decide as no great jobs had come to mi..
applied for NTU and SMU..
muz see wads their reply first..

its still okay when cny is juz over..
i am still able to cope with the angbao money..
sooner or later, it will run dry..
pray for mi that jobs will come to mi!

tata~

merry xmas in advance!

2006-12-21T00:15:00.000+08:00

hmm.. xmas is coming.. yet i dun really feel the same as last few years.. celebrations will be less due to alot of factors.. but nvm.. life still goes on..

when cash run really low, this will be a super big wake up call for me.
-NO SHOPPING
-NO DINING OUT
-NO OUTING
.. and alot of NO.
i really noe the meaning of without cash, we can really do nothing.
i noe this is the worst period of my life.
but trust mi, we will get it over soon =))
(sorry if i cant get u guys pressies)

when pple are at their ultimate anger with someone,
they tend to think of the worst part of the person.
this is me.
but when i cool down,
i will feel bad and guilty.
that i shouldn't say all that bad things.
and tot of the sweetest things u've done for me.
i am sorry my dear.
tend to be temperamental this few weeks.
and throw my slightest tantrums at u.
i didn't meant it.
love u =)

merry xmas in advance!
hugs*

lalala

2006-11-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

sch starting in few days time..
i dun wan sch to start..
can we haf extended hols?

when i am having my SIP..
i wish to go sch..
when sch's starting..
i wish to work instead..
haiz..
humans are juz like that..
hard to satisfy with.

yah, thats juz mi la.
in case i offend anyone.
hahahas..

found a event promoter job..
distributing voucher..
with basic and commission..
so anyone see mi loitering outside the shopping centre..
u shld noe wad i am doing alr..

seriously short of money.
wadever jobs come, i shall take it..
not to be fussy anymore.

anyway, happy advance bday lion king!
enjoy ur day on that day.
my best wishes.
u noe i dun blog everyday.
so its juz advanced wishes.
might be working on that day.
so i dun tink i can join u guys.
anyway, i am no longer belongs to the group alr.
i noe it myself.
nobody to find fault with or blame on.
tink i drift alot with u guys oso.
its juz a matter of sooner or later.
i noe how to accept it.

sighsss.

nites.

boO~

2006-11-17T20:20:00.000+08:00

i am back again.. my blog seems so dusty.. wipes wipes* =)

last few weeks was busy..
handing over my attachment stuffs..
min bday..
driving lessons..
and of cos,
spending time with my precious him. =))

attachment is finally over..
felt so relaxed...
yet worried over my major project and other stuffs..
soon i will be graduating..
that seems so fast..
need to start job hunting now..

driving's fun..
hahaha.. although my engine stalled so many times during gear 1..
but this shall not be a problem..

bank running dry again..
i need a job...
with high pay..
wishful thinking~
haha..

oh, by the way..
HAPPY BDAY chee kui!
have a wonderful day ahead ya! =)

thats all for now~

grrrrrrr...

2006-10-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

PISSED OFF!
so angry.
u shld noe why.
we shall not talk anymore.
no more.
i shall be a goooooodie pie and keep quiet.
not asking anything.

juz let me cool down.
its doesn't matter anymore.
cos i am non-existence too in ur eyess.

SHOO!~
i wanna bite!

my bad my bad n my bad

2006-10-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

its all my fault..
my hobby is juz spending money..
i dun spend i will die..
thats me from the very first day u know me..

i noe u are saving up..
i noe..
and i am trying my best not to spend..
and work more..
even whole day after waking up early in the morning..
so i can help u relieve some of ur burden..

but this doesn't seems the way..
i am like a burden to u..
if i spend more, u will need to replenish mi more..
i did save up for this month..
and i am proud of myself..
but but but..
its juz not enough..
NOT ENOUGH FOR ANYTHING..
forget it..
my efforts will nv be seen..

its boring life..
i did complained i admit..
its juz my fault..
should haf shut my big fat mouth up..
for suggesting watching a movie next week..
then all this wont happen..

overall, its all my fault..
for being demanding..
i'm apologetic for being such a person..
i'm sorry.
gdnite. i dun wish to think anymore..
drop tears.

happy 5 monthss

2006-10-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

its 5 months from where we started.. happy monthsssss.. hope this will last all the way..

actually today its juz a normal day..
woke up, went to work..
after work, went to his house..
and woosh!
a surprise for me...
hehe..

first is the roses bouquet made of strawberries

nice? hehehes.. so sweet of him...

2nd surprise.. a chocolate cookies cheese cake that he made himself.. potential house man he can be.. hohohohoho... muacks muacks..

i dun bear to eat the strawberries... they are still in the fridge.. cos its juz so nice.. thanks for everything darling.. i love uuu.. =)

...

2006-10-07T16:06:00.000+08:00

I hate the feeling of being ignored.
So pls dun give me that feeling.
its juz so.................................................
i dunno how to explain.
u all shld noe how it feels.

Feeling down nowadays..
I dunno why..
Mood swing bah..
Sometimes I really wonder am I still existing on this tiny earth.

Sometimes I really wondered.
Wad can really makes me feel happy?
All the love from him?
A sheepish smile from him?
A surprise from him?
A message from frens that they do remember me?
The feeling of shopping around buying the things I wanted?
Actually I think, is all of the above.
I am so hard to be contented.

Frens do come and go in ur life.
But who is the one that really imprint a hard footprint on ur heart is the crucial one.
I do need a few. Just a few.
And I know they are with me when I need them.
Thanks. I really appreciate that.
Not to mention my precious him who is always with me all the times..

SHOO!~
Lets talk about some happy things now..
Finally passed my BTT with my dearest.
Another thing, he?s waiting for TP for his bike license now..
So fast.. I am so proud of him..
I am gonna have a private chauffeur! Hees
No la.. its more convenient than taking the public transport..
Somemore we stay so far away..

Anyway, darling's sis is going away to aust tmr.
Hope everything will be well for her.
I will miss her and her in-middle-of-the-night cooking.
Some taste really good i can say.
Take good care=)

i wanna unwind.........................................

zzzzZZZZZZZzzz

2006-10-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

tired tired tired.. my attachment now is no slack but TIRING.. why?
let me show u..

Mon to Thurs: stationed in NUH
Fri and Sat: In gleneagles medical centre

Actually i dun mind the running here and there part.. but i need to carry my super super super heavy equipment around here and there.. can u imagine? somemore its not that i am only working in attachment.. i haf another job man.. this life can really makes me feel so worn out after a day..

wan to help mi lose weight oso not by this way.. argh....! somemore i dun haf transport.. cant always take taxi.. $500 a month oso not enough use man..

let mi grumblesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss............

i feel like a old lady.. k la.. so tired.. nite peeps.. meet u all in lala land..

take a look at this

2006-09-28T15:10:00.000+08:00

take a look at this phone.. was browsing thru the net when i saw this pink nokia phone.. so nice! its function is good either.. 3MP with auto-focus, 3G, got radio, bluetooth, got memory card slot till 2MP..

nokia 7390.. cool rite? haha somemore flip phone.. so nice the color.......

nice thing of cos it has its disadvantages: it weighs 115g..! and its talk time is only up to 3hr.. those who loves to chat will have to constantly bring a charger out ba.. haha.. anyway, it is available in bronze black too..

anyway, i was juz taking a look.. no intentions to change my lovely W810i.. its still my baby.. hahaha.. every now and then.. cool and nice phone are coming.. i cant predict wad comes next..

tmr i will be going to NUH for collection of patient's data.. hai.. so faraway.. nvm.. at least i can learn more things.. and stop doing nothing..

so slpy.. wanna take a nap.. zzz... later still muz work... $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$...

all i wan is $$$$$$$$$$$$.. hahahaa...

take care peeps!

girls outing..

2006-09-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

hooray.. finally met up with the girls after so long..
tink six months? haha.. but quite disappointed cos jiang was not there..
there goes our complete gathering..
anyway, there's always next time..

met up at orchard..
as usual, i am late.. (sorry=D)
then we went to eat yoshinoya..

changes:
xinyan became slimmer and prettier..
yuwen became more chic with her new hair cut..
shu, as usual, still short yet cute..
me, of cos grown fatter..*sighs*
then we went yoshinoya to eat..
shop ard in far east then to cineleisure..
then to plaza sing..
sorry wen, made u walk despite of ur blisters on ur feet..
crapping and laughing along the way..

feel that how time can flies without u knowing it..
i can still remember the times where we played zero point during recess and aft sch..
i can still remember the times when we were all so childish..
i can still remember the days where we will eat cup noodles or ice-cream aft sch..
i can still remember myself being so toot in those specs..
hahahaha..i miss those days.. so carefree..

anyway, i am glad we are still in contact=)
hope this will go on and on and on..
till we all get married and bring our child out tgther..
i can't imagine that actually..
all the "auntie, auntie.." will come to my ears..
hahahahaha...

saw jackson on sat..
before he went for work to nab for equinox party..
felt a sense of familiarization..but also felt changes in there too..

saw tracy(cpf) on msn on sat too..
chat so much..
really missed the days when we are working tgther..
ur malaysian accent.. so funny.. and ur pointy shoes..
cheer up k??

darling is getting naggy nowadays..
i noe my bank account is running dry again..
hohoho.. i juz can't save up..
but i promise i will save up for this month k?
pls trust me....
attachment pay pls come faster..
i need moneyyyyyy...

i wanna get my driving license asap..
so sian.. why muz driving include so much practical lessons?
superfluous and money-wasting i feel..

sometimes i really feel drifting away from my frens becos of my relationship..
cos i hardly meet up with them..
maybe once in 3 to 6 months?
but true frens will understand rite?=)
i hope so..

gdnite peeps.. sweet dreams=)

reflectionsss..

2006-09-23T10:26:00.000+08:00

i am back.. with lotsa of tots and feeings..

i'm sorry to did all those mean things to u..
i din meant to..
sometimes i will feel like a caged bird..
that only can be in the cage..
unable to fly out..
but i noe how much u did for mi..
tats why i dun wanna fly out of this cage..
but i need space with my frens..
i am sorry that by doing this will upset u..
its my fault..
shldn't have gone out with them..
sorry to make u cry the whole nite..
i love u.

been busy nowadays..
how to do my statistical?
this is a big problem..
i am lost..
can someone help mi?

feel so fat nowadays..
i shldn't eat so much..
lose weight lose weight lose weight..
darling, pls control mi k?
and no feed mi so much..
muacks.

i miss u all.. hugss

yawns

2006-09-07T12:20:00.000+08:00

bored at work.. decided to blog.. i seems to develop fear for work on thurs and sat cos my prof is here.. oh no......

john little mega sales is on again. hooray.. gonna stock up something again.. but i shall not spend so much...

decided to take private candidate for driving lessons.. that means i am dropping out of school and forfeit my 100 plus dollars of registration fees.. *heartache*

my heart no longer feel the pain anymore..

is this a good or bad thing?

i dunno..

hmm

2006-08-31T13:56:00.000+08:00

yest went to see chua in the hospital when jiang n dong.. he had appendicitis. need an operation.. but i guess cgh efficiency is quite low.. poor guy.. waited from morning till nite still din get his operation due to the opertaion theatre was constantly occupied.. anyway, juz wish him all the best man..

us with chua

went for a hair cut with jiang earlier at chapter 2.. my hair needs some trimming.. looks so grass.. haha..

jiang n mi

now, i am feeling lousy.. one of my patient's mom complained about mi.. so angry when i see her idiotic moves.. argh........... not going to let this affect my mood.. wrinkles wrinkles go away..

its a rainy day.. take care guys! dun catch cold=)

botanical garden trip

2006-08-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

yup.. i am back.. shall update u guys wad i did yesterday.. a trip to botanical gardens! hahaha.. how long was the last trip to there? i tink maybe 4 to 5 years ba.. during our band or choir musical festival..

so many changes in there.. shall use pic to let u all see wad i had visited=)

our first pic since entrance

some birds we saw at symphony lake

some star-shaped cactus

nice statue =)

lovely love swans

constantly hungry swan

look here swan! u are on camera =D

dumb dumb duckie that refused to eat the oreo cookies we fed it.. hahaha

some weird flowers we saw.. this is before blooming..
this is after blooming.. quite disappointing ah.. tot it would be a nice flower?

blue flowers.. and continue with beautiful flower we saw along the pathway..

finally we reached the orchid garden! nice colorful orchid huh..

and more..

orange orchids

and the red ones

moth-pollinated orchid

sun-dial.. but we dunno how to read the time..

can u spot a squirrel in this pic?

bae yong jun's flower

jackie chan's flower

ricky martin's flower

vanda miss joaquim

looks like a normal tree rite? wait till u see the next pic..

its a giant tree! sorry ah.. the pic is tilted..

last pic pf the day!

hope u enjoyed the pic.. hahaha.. feel like gg botanical gardens? dun forget bread or biscuits to feed the constantly hungry fishes, tortoises, swans, duck and birds there...

till my next post.. miss ya peeps!

sick..

2006-08-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

yup.. sick for these few days.. running a fever yest.. worst one in my whole life.. nv shiver so much b4.. luckily darling was there for mi all the way.. thanks n muacks..

nv taken so much MC in my life b4.. haha.. hope this is not gonna affect my attachment..

darling is down with diarrhea too.. dunno wads wrong with us.. *prays hard*

wondering whether is there still pple reading my blog.. cos it looked so abandoned.. maybe i shldn't create a blog at first..

anyway, nite!

felt so tiny in this world..
am i forgotten?

i'm a july baby!

2006-08-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

i'm a JULY baby! hees=D

Fun to be with.
Secretive.
Difficult to fathom and to be understood.
Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself.
Has reputation.
Easily consoled.
Honest.
Concerned about people's feelings.
Tactful.
Friendly.
Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt.
Witty and sparkly.
spazzy at times.
Not revengeful.
Forgiving but never forgets.
dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally.
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully.
Caring and loving.
Treats others equally.
Strong sense of sympathy.
Wary and sharp.
Judges people through observations.
Hardworking.
No difficulties in studying.
Loves to be alone.
Always broods about the past and the old friends.
Waits for friends. Never looks for friends.
Not aggressive unless provoked.
Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

hmm.. so true huh.. hahaha.. hugs!

sometimes

2006-08-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

sometimes...

*i felt loved
*i felt eternity
*i felt pampered
*i felt breathless
*i felt untrusted
*i felt lost
*i felt like a kid
*i felt unsecured
*i felt this is not mi
*i dunno what i wan

relationship is for two pple to build on and maintain.. but it needs so much sacrifices n time.. i am trying hard to accomodate.. i am not perfect.. i have my flawS.. i mean alot of them.. i am sorry if i hurt u so much..

everytime we quarrel, u are the one giving in.. i felt real bad.. i am unreasonable by all means.. but deep inside.. i really love u so..

i hate quarrels. can we dun quarrel anymore?

i love u*

gonna get busy

2006-07-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

hey guys.. sorry tt i made my blog looked so abandoned.. but its gonna be so for this few weeks.. cos i am gonna get busy with my attachment work.. its stressed working with a prof with high expectations.. *sighs*

been busy with bday celebration this few weeks.. july is full of bday mood.. hahaha.. but i really enjoyed them..

will be stop working in nab for months.. tink i will miss the music there ba.. haha.. not sure..

getting my pay tmr.. i wanna shop! who's going out for shopping pls call mi k?

gotta get busy.. miss ya guys=)

thanks!

2006-07-17T12:30:00.000+08:00

thanks peeps.. for all ur wishes on my bday.. i am really touched n appreciate it alot.. lets see what i did these few days..

first on my actual day.. i still need to work for attachment but left early..

my bday flowers from HIM. hugss=)

after that we went for movie and dinner as usual.. its juz a normal day yet i felt so blessed with him.. thanks for everything u did for mi.. i am satisfied..

cakey surprise from him.. even though i am full but i managed to gorge them down..

big hugs n kiss for u. love ya.

went out with jia jia, min, caie, jiang, chua, calvin, weisiang, dicky, serene,junwei, kimleong for my bday dinner yest at fish n co.. thanks for ur presence.. i really appreciate alot.. sorry for leaving u guys out early.. hope u guys understand.. hope to meet up with u guys real soon..

all and all.. i juz wan to thanks everyone again.. huggss*

hehehe

2006-07-13T09:31:00.000+08:00

hohoho! got wireless at my workplace.. cool man! finally i got it... hahahahaha.. so happy!

pls.. i am not trying to be wei da.. cos i find it no point to argue anymore.. will us be the same us back again? think properly. the answer is NO. i noe u dislike mi alot now. so i dun tink by quarrelling more, u will love mi more. u will juz hate mi more. somemore maybe get more wrinkles..

diff pple haf diff views.. this is juz mi.. if u tink i make a big fuss.. den go ahead.. i got nothing to say.. some pple will support u while other will support mi.. cos they haf their own stand oso.. i wont blame anyone..

had a talk with dong few days ago.. and i found out so much moral stories from him. thanks dong.. i noe how to carry on my life properly.. haha..

things shld always being looked on both sides.. example.. when in a quarrel, u dun onli think of the person's bad point and then keep on persisting that u are right, think of how the person create wonderful moments in ur life.. this can help u to think of how to resolve the quarrel.

in a frenship or relationship, it is crucial that u accept each other's gd and bad.. if not, it will be hard for u to maintain any frenship or relationship.. regret is the most painful thing u can encounter on earth.. so think properly b4 u make any decision.. not forgetting, following to where ur heart leads u is impt too..

my supervisor is here.. gonna do my work already..

pls let mi haf a joyful bday.

no quarrels

2006-07-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

juz deleted my post. tot of wad darling said. no longer effective agitating one another.

things aren't going better. why might as well we end this up nicely.

we will feel much better.

no comparing of who's angel or who's baddie.

no hard feelings.

juz move on with life as per normal.

thanks for everything.

take care.

totally hopeless

2006-07-06T01:02:00.000+08:00

forgive mi if i am crude or wad so ever. THIS IS MY BLOG. i dun give it a shit.

was talking to someone juz now online when someone saw her online. while i didn't. suddenly both of us realised she must have done blocking to mi. is this a need. how cruel can u be my girl. totally changed. now my heart has dead. totally hopeless i noe.

this is juz ridiculous. when my blood is almost boiled, someone said to mi, no point getting angry. since we dun talk, whether she blocked mi anot isn't a matter to mi anymore, it doesn't raise the price of pork.

haha. very true. this suddenly makes mi wake up. why shld i give a bloody hell damn n make myself angry over this? when she dun even waste a tiny bit of energy to think abt how i feel when i find out?

pointless. after all this. i felt so relieved. thanks to someones' enlightenment. haha.

yeah. i dun even used the word f***. so happy. at least i din waste my energy

nite peeps.

i'm back! =)

2006-06-16T14:55:00.000+08:00

here comes my return! haha.. sorry ah.. let u all waited sooo long.. too much things n too little time.. changed my blogskin! simple yet nice.. actually changed quite long le.. but no time to update.. haha.. last 2 weeks has been a fufilling n relaxing one.. went to indonesia with dear n his sis n gf.. its a kelong tat we have been living on for three days two nights.. very relaxing.. i experienced how the olden days pple lived their life now.. simple yet fulfilling.. here goes my pics.. its gonna be a v long post to compensate the time since i din blog.. enjoy em'=)

my one month pressie for him.. its a flying piglet!

this is the back view

in the train station on the way to his bday dinner with his family=)

its him! haha.. carrying my bag for mi.. looks so sissy.. cos i forced him to take a pic! nice pose huh? haha.. muacks.its his pathetic bday cake tt steph bought for him.. sorry dear.. din get u a decent cake..

now its indonesia's trip time!=D

on the way to bintan resort on the ferry.. its so bright.. makes us look so darkstill on the ferry.. i look so funny

we are bored n made funny faces =D

army ship! how cool!

its a eagle statue tt we saw when we reached bintan.. tink it symbolises indonesia..

on the car on the way to kelong...

finally we reached the kelong!

our home for the 3 days=)

big fish she got! hehs..

nice breeze!

nice moon reflection on the sea

crabs we caught for the night.. i noe it looked yucky.. haha.. can u spot a swordfish in there? haha=D

big fish that darling caught.. although it looked small as compared to them =P it weighs 3++ kgbig coconuts!

simple meal that satisfies us=)

angel fish that darling caught for mi=))

on the way back to s'pore on the car.. finally a pic of 4 of us!

hugs;)

alot of pics rite.. haha.. finally all uploaded liao.. okay.. i shall update u guys wad i did recently.. i juz bought my laptop.. samsung Q35coo6.. for my attachment purposes.. my attachment had started.. i am doing research on sphygmocor machine.. its a machine that measure patients' radial pulse to analyse the condition of the heart.. cool rite?? but its super tiring.. i need to run btw NUS n gleneagles.. that explain why i got my allowance for..

in gleneagles i am working in the singapore baby n child clinic.. its super delighting to see babies n children everyday.. they really make my day.. its such a joy.. and the pple there are friendly n nice.. so its a blessing that i am posted to there.. although i need to work 5 and a half day.. tiring ah.. there goes my nab job.. i need to cut down the shift n quit sooner n later..

sorry dear.. i din meant to quarrel with u all these while.. i noe u dun wan mi to work so much.. but i juz tink tt if i can work n earn more money.. it will be better.. then we wont be so vexed over money matters in later times.. hugs hugs..

i'm starting to miss sch days.. attachment is goonna be sooo long.. five months!!! haiz... anyway.. hapy bday steph! haha.. hope u enjoyed ur day today.. gotta have my dinner.. update u guys again.. take care!=)

hmMm...

2006-06-01T00:51:00.000+08:00

today was a long day for mi.. had lessons from 9 to 1.. den went down to swissotel to take pay.. kinda got moody over someone's tantrums.. but its all over.. i juz hope humans can learn not to throw tantrums at another cos its not fair.. why do the innocent party has to bear all that when she did nothing wrong.. tink abt it.. nvm la.. i tink he's too stressed over work..

went to raffles city to haf some snacks with dear.. den went over his house to watch 40 year old virgin n cook glutinous rice balls for him.. he got lots of cravings.. haha.. but nvm la.. i shld ease all his cravings.. hehs..

was quite vexed abt my posting that mr poh told mi last few days.. can u imagine i am posted alone to gleneagles' hospital all alone?! how can he bluff mi to say tt he will put mi to work with gen at sgh in research.. juz felt so cheated.. n all he tell mi is : ' dun worry eling, u will be working with professors'.

oh damn.. how can i dun worry.. professor... this seems the hardest person to get along with.. hai.. pray for mi i wont screw up anything when i am in my attachment period.. so far gleneagles is.. tanglin.. near orchard.. u guys wanna go shopping at orchard can give mi a call la..

oh well... change topic.. this is wad my precious boy did for mi after my work last week.. he actually cooked supper cum breakfast for mi! haha.. goodness.. but i really appreciate wad he did for mi.. thanks n big hugs* knowing u in my life is my greatest blessing on earth.

ham n mushroom spaghetti.. my frens said it looked like fried noodles.. but its v nice=)

cream of mushroom.. yums=P

had a squeasy stomach n requested that i wanted soup.. haha.. thanks darling.. u are always so considerate towards mi=)

love ya=)

shoo shoo shoo!

2006-05-25T23:10:00.000+08:00

shoo away all the unlucky n bad stuffs! all i wan is peaceful n happy life.. i am easily contented.. juz dun let anything bad happen to mi or him anymore.. we are tired of it..

this week sucks to the core.. everything is happening in a blink of second.. actually is all happening on him.. all i can do is to stay by his side.. hoping he's fine den i will be happy.. feel so sad seeing him in such a painful n agonized state.. how i wish all this things can happen to mi.. sometimes i juz feel so useless.. cos i can do nothing to cheer him up but juz staying quietly at his side.. sorry dear, wadever happens, u still haf mi k? cheer up=)

oh yah.. juz went to long bar for a interview with him today.. yeah hooray, i can try out bartending finally.. but if i dun like i can always switch to service side.. long bar environment is more to relaxing type with peanut shells all over the place.. haha.. but i still will work in nab.. cos tts the place i feel belong to.. if we haf a choice, we will definitely stay in nab.. but juz too bad.. things doesnt go our way..

hmm.. attachment in 4 weeks time.. juz to keep u guys updated.. i am not posted to cgh for attachment.. cos i'm in research.. so most likely i will be in sgh.. sian.. so far away.. there goes my sleeping time..

went shopping with suiling n victor juz now.. surprisingly i bought only one clear mascara.. haha.. shocked leh.. cos i am not in the mood to shop for anything.. too much things had happened.. everything seems not appeasing to mi..

shall pray hard nothing goes wrong again.. tmr is ccn day.. shall shop ard in sch b4 i do my proj.. gotta do my research now.. guys, pray hard for mi will ya? hehs.. hugs*

too many things, too little time

2006-05-22T16:49:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really feel i got too many things yet too little time.. or i am juz too lazy to do anything.. how i wish i can lie on my bed the whole day juz to sleep sleep n sleep.. but i cant.. simply cant..

coping with studies, work n love is tough.. but i am managing fine now.. i wont bear to lose any one of them.. cos they are all impt to mi..

got my new hp W810i.. dear dunno bought from which part of chinatown.. but he said its a good deal n refused to tell mi the amount.. anyway, i love this phone n thanks dear.. love ya lots n muacks.. sorry for letting u run here n there on thurs.. i felt bad..

lotsa things had arised but this juz add more learning points to our relationship.. lets keep it this way k?

gonna go for tutorial.. super slpy now.. i wan my bed.. hehs.. take care peeps=)

haiz haiz haiz

2006-05-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

cries.. lost my hp yest while walking in bugis street.. super heartpain.. if i lost V3I i wont be so sad.. K750I got lotsa memories.. some things cant be gained back.. all my things are gone gone gone.. i cursed the person who took my hp! arghhhhh.......

haiz.. forget it.. wad is lost is lost.. cant be gain back.. need to save up money to buy a new hp.. i cant stand V3I.. super not user friendly.. wads the use of being slim n sleek? grrRrr....

sorry dear.. i noe i made u dulan yest.. lets wait for the price of W810I to drop first b4 we regret k? i noe u dun bear to see mi in pain.. but i still haf phone mah.. no rush no rush..

i'm super suay nowadays.. anyone got good lobang for hp pls contact mi k?

oh yah.. anyone seen this blog pls leave mi a sms.. i may have lost ut hp no.. thanks n hugs*

hmm..

2006-05-11T02:50:00.000+08:00

feel like blogging tonite.. so here i goes..

alot of things had came to my mind..

to YOU:
i still care about ur feelings.. but i dunno how to express.. we made alot of promises to each other n i am still living with it.. i wanted u to be the first to noe when i'm attached.. but i can't.. i fear of wad ur reply will be.. so i din.. sorry to make u feel non-existent or wad.. i have told suiling to pass the msg.. may u find ur true love soon.. i will definitely chip in the bottle of RoSe with suiling.. take gd care n dun be stress up=)

yups.. i've found someone close to my heart.. boy, thanks for always being there for mi.. i appreciate it alot.. hugs*

tmr will be working again.. sian.. but nvm la.. 8 bucks is a great deal.. hehs.. hope wont be busy tmr.. *prays hard* hahaha..

gonna go to bed.. tired liao.. nites peeps=)

i hate sch!

2006-05-08T01:12:00.000+08:00

i am starting to hate sch.. proj proj n projs.. why there is a need for all this? now i really wish for attachment.. and e-lects sucks la.. i dun haf the motivation to go n listen to them.. so sian.. yup.. finally i am back to start bloggin again.. sorry guys.. makes my blog looked so abandoned.. hehs..

life has been fine.. stuck in btw sch n work.. its tiring i noe.. but no choice.. nobody feeding mi.. lol.. how i wish i have 48 hrs a day sometimes.. then i can take things as slow as i wan..

my mood swings very easily nowadays.. i guess its becos i am lack of slp.. sorry guys if i made ur day a bad one.. real sorry.. thanks for ur concern too.. i'm juz lack of slp.. i'm glad that i have u guys in my life.. hugs*

i am deprived of shopping again.. anyone free pls ask mi out for shopping k? haha.. but control mi at the same time =D

pink n white party yest was a breeze.. i really wondered is there a need to have it every month.. sales is low, waste money n human's energy.. bet its not going to stay after 6 months..

i'm slpy after listening to e-lects.. it got hypnotising effects.. hahahas.. k, update u guys soon.. take care=)

hmmm..

2006-04-26T12:03:00.000+08:00

sian.. sch is only 1 hr for today.. from 9 to 10.. freaking slack.. i muz get used to it.. then mr poh told us we will be divided into 3 hospitals.. SGH, KK n CGH.. i wan CGH.. den i can wake up later n no need to worry tt i will be late.. became super lazy nowadays.. alarm ring i oso can dun care.. lol..

still considering research or medical area i shld choose from.. hmm.. maybe i shld choose medical.. research is for smart alec one.. i scared i will be stress out after tat.. haha.. sian.. later going to get pay.. maybe only la.. if i can rush down on time.. no money liao.. i am broke broke n broke.. someone save mi pls? =D

sms rate getting higher n higher each day.. anyone wanna find mi, pls directly call mi k? i may not reply ur sms as i am cutting down on them.. dun wan my bills to explode like hell.. den all i will hear is my mom's nagging.. haha..

k.. i gonna take a nap first.. hot weather! hate the sun at times.. sweet dreams=)

i'm back.

2006-04-25T02:08:00.000+08:00

yup.. i am back blogging.. wipe n blow dust away* haha.. dunno why.. i am lazy to blog nowadays.. very lazy.. maybe too much things had been on my minds till i dunno wad to blog.. wadever it is.. i shall blog wad i did today..

went to eastpoint to meet suiling at first.. she wanna find her miniature perfume.. but cannot find.. then we waited for jiajia to finish her work at 5.. raining so heavily sia.. so i offered to fetch her with my umbrella.. she wearing skirt leh.. later fall down not nice la.. hahaha..

then we went to bugis to haf our dinner at swensens.. nice baked rice they haf.. yum.. hehs.. then shop around.. but i am always the one buying things.. jiao, shld haf grab u into any shop n ask u to buy.. haha.. nvm la.. at least u aimed for the paris hilton perfume liao.. nice price sia.. i oso wanna get tt.. but wait for my pay to come first la..

shopped till 9 plus then went home le.. tmr gt stupid apel at 5pm to 6 pm.. hope can change to another day.. then i can haf a day off.. hahaha..

sian.. feeling so tired now.. too much things on my mind.. i dun wanna make any decisions.. be it i am lazy or i am enjoying the status i am having now.. but i juz wan to feel happy n not hurting any one else.. love mi for who i am k? take care guys=)

finally...

2006-04-20T11:32:00.000+08:00

finally.. i am super satisfied with my timetable.. hehs.. cos its super slack.. lol.. its finally my turn to start enjoying slack timetable.. so happy..

here goes my timetable:

mon:12-7 (quite long day hor)
tues:5-6 (juz becos of stupid apel lesson, i am so gonna change it)
wed:9-11
thurs:8-6(super long day, juz becos of a 5 hr break in btw. haiz)
fri:11-1

woohoo.. quite nice le la.. but i tink all Problem-Based Learning subjects.. cos i will be in sch for only 7 weeks.. then go for my no pay attachement.. wth.. haiz..

wadever n ever, i muz be contented with wad i have now la.. take care guys.

broke broke broke

2006-04-17T01:55:00.000+08:00

i'm broke again. went to john little sales juz now to see wad can i whack.. hehs.. as i expected.. i spent 80 bucks in there. sinful mi. hehs.. after that we went to genki sushi to have our dinner.. nice ambience they have.. den went to shop ard at tampines area.. i dun haf mood to shop cos i'm broke.. forgive mi if i'm moodless. haagen-dazs fondue was nice.. although abit small for four pple.. but i kinda enjoyed it..

eventually wanted to head home but den met min n caie.. so decided to slack with them for awhile.. sorry min n caie.. i din realised u two cut ut hair.. hehs.. but its nicer with short fringe.. we are young ok.. lol..

went to watch reincarnation.. its a lousy show.. no ending.. after the show has ended.. i din even noe wads its trying to potray.. oh my.. haha..

ended my day joyfully. thanks for everything u guys did for mi.. hugs*

hehs =D

2006-04-12T03:28:00.000+08:00

yipee.. finally had my haircut le.. hehs.. today went to take my pay with suiling n victor.. after that we went to eat.. eventually wanted to eat crystal jade.. however.. we got tempted by the shilin taiwan snacks.. hahas.. its nice ok.. how to resist tat man.. eventually wanted to haf gelare waffles too.. cos its half price today.. but too full liao lah.. so we headed for our haircut..

we went to far east level five.. oh my god.. i din realised far east got so much salons.. 70 salons! tat's alot of competitions man.. haha.. but i am quite satisfied with mine.. suiling and victor one looked more of punk style.. hehs..

after tat, we shopped ard in far east.. i got myself a pair of slippers n a billabong lanyard thingy.. eventually wanted a pink one.. but too bad tat dun haf the hp accessory to hang hp.. so i chose the blue one.. buy things muz think of multi-purpose.. not only becos of its superficial outlook..

then i parted with suiling they all and went to cineleisure to meet up with dong, jiang n kennerd for kbox.. long time nv see kennerd le.. still the same.. hahas.. enjoyed ourselves la..

sang till 11 plus then headed down to saffron to meet huimin n caie.. finally took my esprit shirts from caie.. thanks caie.. big hugs for u k? =) chat awhile then headed home.. cos we are all tired..
gonna get some rest le.. take care guys=)

enjoyable day=)

2006-04-10T04:03:00.000+08:00

woke up by jiang in the noon.. she asked mi out for shopping with jia oso.. so we went bugis first.. omg.. so crowded at bugis la.. we shop here n there n i got myself a bag, a watch n a belt.. hehs.. =D

tried a perfume in sasa.. smells real nice.. dunno wad brand is tat.. jiao, u check it out liao then tell mi k? muacks=) hee..

then we proceeded to orchard to meet up with zhen dong for dinner and another round of shopping.. peggy came to meet us later too.. basically we are juz window shopping.. nothing to buy.. wanted to get myself some t-shirts actually.. but nothing caught my eyes.. haiz.

after tat we went back to tamp central n meet up with chua, alvin n songxuan.. sat at interchange mac's.. super noisy inside there.. so much guys watching the soccer match over there.. then we chat as we snack along..

jiang n dong, dun be sad over r/s k? they are not worth for ur love.. u all will haf mi ard at all times k? hugs*

heard so much pple gonna go for ns so soon.. dong n songxuan on 9th june.. yang on 12th june.. muz meet up with them more often.. i'm gonna miss dong's crap so much. gosh..

its 4 plus now.. gonna get myself some beauty slp.. lack of sleep nowadays.. tata guys=)

from me to u

2006-04-08T05:06:00.000+08:00

indeed, i was shocked to see ur posting to mi, yet elated.

i'm glad i still stand a place in ur heart afterall.

i knew u wanted mi to think wad i haf done wrong.

i'm trying to spend less, only on necessary things.

i'm making decision by myself now.

i admit, i once wanted to give up on this frenship.

cos i din noe wad to do.

but when memories comes to mi.

i deserted all my tots n cling on.

true, life has to go on.

i trying hard to move on.

i realised i depended too much on u.

tats why when we quarrelled, i felt i am in the bottom of the pit.

but dun worry, things has been good till now.

i dread the feeling of us not talking to each other.

its juz so weird, i dunno why.

i knew clubbing is indecent for girls.

but i will haf my limits, trust mi.

we work in the bar, i know how dangerous for a girl to be drunk.

dun worry for mi.

suiling will always be there for u.

we need frens to depend on.

its not the number of frens we haf.

i only treasure true frens.

i learnt tat problems in life helps us to grow.

whether big or small.

i will appreciate it.

afterall, u are someone tat no one can replace in my heart.

take gd care n love ya.

fatigues..

2006-04-03T02:31:00.000+08:00

i'm suffering from fatigue i tink.. everyday i woke up with achings n tiredness all over my body.. sometimes i am wondering why am i working so hard for? money or becos i am too bored at home? hais.

went to phuture on fri to celebrate jiang's bday.. first we went to swensen for dinner.. dun ever try the pizza over there.. small yet sucky.. wan nicer pizza come nab.. its big n tasty i guarantee.. haha.. then we headed to phuture.. cos zouk got fashion show.. very packed le.. redeemed my coupon with tequila pop n vodka bitter lemon.. anyway, i hope jiang enjoyed her day.. muacks girl=)

i wish thurs to reach faster.. my off day yet shopping day.. i wanna shop shop n shop.. hahaha.. den sun i can rest tight at home on sun.. k lah.. enough of my crapping.. gonna slp soon le.. nites peeps=)

home alone 2

2006-03-29T02:01:00.000+08:00

parents went to genting again.. leaving mi and my bro at home.. so sian.. luckily i am working tmr n thurs.. but it doesn't make a diff.. cos whether my parents are at home anot.. i am not restricted to report to them when i go out.. juz not used to it when the house is so quiet. lols

went kbox with steph, kwoo, cindy, michelle, genie n king juz now.. sang from 7 to 10pm.. poor cindy lost $40.. dun sad k.. next time be more careful.. money can be earned back.. but we enjoyed ourselves singing our hearts out..

den we went to clarke quay to walk n stroll around.. my first time seeing bungy singapore.. it was wow.. i was like "oh my god" when i saw it.. feel like trying but its $50 per person.. so ex.. so i juz enjoy the scene of others having their bungy ride..

sitting by the riverside.. how romantic if my mr right was with mi.. hahas.. still long long way b4 i find one lah.. those who are attached shld really haf their date there.. no regrets i guarantee u.. hahas..

looking forward to fri.. will be celebrating jiang's bday den.. how rare i will not work on fri.. lols.. nitez peeps=)

arghs..

2006-03-27T13:14:00.000+08:00

guess wad.. i failed my btt for driving test.. shucks.. this sucks sia.. i must pass it the next time.. no kidding.. its easy.. how can i failed it? waste my six dollars and time only.. haiz haiz.. i will pass it next time.. trust mi=)

sianz.. why is it raining all the time nowadays.. i cant do so much things when its raining.. feel like jogging but cannot liao.. i seriously need to lose weight liao.. feeling tat i am growing fatter everyday.. haha.. even though i walk around alot.. but still.. i am fat lah.

going for kbox with my poly frens tmr.. hahahas.. finally a kbox for mi.. long time nv sing liao.. yeah.. tata guys=)

yeah..

2006-03-25T15:32:00.000+08:00

finally its saturday.. tmr will be my off day.. i am gonna rest at home and study for my basic theory test for driving.. shit.. i hope i wont fail it.. i haven get a thing in my brain yet.. haiz.. haha.. i wanna go for metro sales.. anyone wanna acc mi? haha

i feel like doing so much things on my mind..
1) watch movies (its been dunno how long since i watched one)
2) gathering with my sec frens (i miss them so much)
3) going overseas (i wanna go taiwan)
4) shopping spree (hahahas)
5) kboxing (long time nv sing liao)

hahaha.. actually most i can fufil it.. juz i need time and money.. i juz realised money is a need.. without it, u really can do nothing.. haiz.. how sad..

oh yah.. tonight superband glamours will be jamming at suntec's fountain of wealth at 7pm if i am not wrong.. help mi go support them if u are free tonight cos i am working.. haha.. they are all my secondary sch frens.. all the best glamours=)

gonna prepare for work.. anyone free muz ask mi out for movies k? hahaha.. tata=)

angry or relieved?

2006-03-21T03:59:00.000+08:00

i dunno whether i shld feel relieved or angry.. the billing thing is becos of chris staple my bill with the wrong bill.. wth.. made mi rummage the whole rubbish bin like hell.. its not fun ok.. when u are anxious and angry being said by him "i dun even noe whether u got throw away the receipt" by the stupid cashier.. pls lah.. its money leh.. will i be damn stupid to throw away tat?

forget it.. he apologised to mi.. i shldn't put it to heart.. juz wan to say out wad i feel.. wad the hell on earth is all the stupid and idiotic things happening to mi nowadays? i am really down down down on my luck. big sigh*

tmr will be payday again.. gonna shop for a bag.. bags bags bags, here i come.

wat have i done?

2006-03-20T15:38:00.000+08:00

i am feeling not myself anymore.. its this the eling ho tat she used to be? i dunno.. too much things had happened tat makes mi sit down and think wad makes mi to become a girl tat i dun even noe her.. maybe i've changed.. sometimes i juz need a shoulder to lie on or a hug so badly.. but too bad, my mr right haven arrived yet..

work is getting worst.. yest 40 ang mohs came up to lvl 72.. leaving mi and yvonne to handle them.. pls lah.. if u are understaffed, dun be smart-alec and let so much pple come up lah.. in the end, got one bill unsettled when i remembered its being charged to room charge.. however the receipt could not be found.. wth.. this case haven being settled yet.. either i need to pay or wat lor.. its 100 plus man.. pray hard for mi tat i wun need to pay for it.. i'm broke.

haiz.. too much tots in my mind.. juz too much.. until i dunno which is right and wrong. maybe i juz need some time to think.. take care guys

can i haf a break?

2006-03-18T16:50:00.000+08:00

argh.. i am tired.. reach home at 5am yest morning.. cos i have to travel on the stupid transport tat went round singapore.. haiz.. so sian.. sometimes i really wonder why i slog so hard for? izzit for the money? or wad? i dunno.. i am so so so no life..

went clubbing with min, jiang and peggy on last wed.. this is some photos we took.. enjoy k?

mosaic photos from jiang's phone.. so unfair.. why my hp can't do it!

Min, Peggy, jiang n me

Jiang n mE

Min n me

luckily its a ladies nite tat we went in momo.. nv ever drink bourbon coke.. it tastes like petrol lah.. min and peggy.. dun drink so much next time k? tell us ur problem its better.. drink too much not good for health oso.. talk to u guys next time.. gotta prepare for work again..

problem problem problemsss

2006-03-15T03:56:00.000+08:00

today i went to take pay with tommy.. then we went to browse around at marina square for juliana's present.. bought her a esprit belt.. actually i like it myself too.. haha.. but nonono.. cannot buy.. no money liao.. then after tat went to eat sakae sushi with him.. dun ever eat the bibinba at marina or bugis.. it sucks lah.. only the citylink there one nice.. the nicest i haf ever eaten i tell u..

after which i went home to put my stuffs and then went to meet up with jiang, amanda, chua, min and peggy at changi village.. everyone has their problems to solve actually.. i wonder when will this world be problems-free.. may we live strong and happy everyday k? muacks

its 3.59am now.. its time for mi to go to bed liao.. tata=)

outing with oldies=)

2006-03-14T03:50:00.000+08:00

went out on sun with my oldies.. went to wild wild wet with jiang and shu first.. wanted to suntan but in the end we din.. haha.. then xinyan came to meet us for dinner.. cos she had her aunt's visit.. we had great fun.. took so much pics.. its photo's time again.. enjoy!=)

*smiless*

*posing for a cute look*

-=Le. Ai. Nu. Xi=-

*stressed n pulls hair*

shu, wad are u trying to do?(we are posing for a nice pic actually)

haha.. jiang got beaten up and shakes her hand.. but where is shu?

*beaten up**one. two. three. four*

argh.. got some photos cant be uploaded.. pissed* hahas.. actually today was a great and relaxing day for mi to work.. except for one guest scolded mi for nothing.. i din scolded him back as i believe wad u do on others will return to u.. i maybe stupid but at least i live in peace.. sounds chim rite.. hahas..

tmr gg down to take pay.. i muz spend less on shopping.. this is one of my promises i made to myself.. but its hard.. cos i'm a 19 years old girl.. its a growing up process.. i muz learn to save up.. jiayou eling! take care guys. muacks

sighS

2006-03-11T15:52:00.000+08:00

guys, this is my results..

Drug Development and clinical trial:B+
Basic Pharmacology:A
Molecular Biology:C+ (oh my shit man)
Mammlian Cell Technology:B+
Communication SKill 4:B (hooray, finally a B. hahas)
Color and Composition:B (did the teacher grade wrongly?)

GPA:3.36

haiz.. actually i am not satisfied with my results.. could have scored better for bpharm.. cos its a easy paper.. and my gpa dropped to 3.36! wth.. i was supposed to make it go up this sem.. cos next sem sure will be damn busy with attachment.. shit shit shit shit.. i am so gonna die man.. haiz..

no point crying over spilled milk.. work yest nite was damn bloody busy.. vulgarities kept coming out from my mouth... smack my mouth* shld use all tat less.. its not girl for a girl.. but sometimes its juz the situation tat makes mi to scold all tat..

i dun care how others look at mi.. i am myself.. i do wad i feel is correct.. with all the weird and idiotic stares i am having nowadays, although i feel uncomfy, but this is my consequence and i will bear it.. i shld haf predicted b4 i do anything.. i wont repeat the same mistakes.. this is a promise to myself..

gonna prepare for work again.. tmr going sentosa.. cos xinyan is having her aunt's visit.. picnic and chit-chatting under the sun.. yipee=)

its waking up time for mi

2006-03-08T01:09:00.000+08:00

suddenly i felt its time for mi to wake up and stop doing silly things to myself.. felt so embarassed after nab chalet.. its the most ugliest moment of my life i felt.. i drank too much and make a fool of myself.. i swear i would never ever get drunk again in my life.. NEVER. this is enough for mi.. i dun wanna make a fool out of myself.. alcohol level during this period of my life have been too high.. its time to let my poor body rest. i juz realised..

enough of tat.. today i went shopping with shuhui, weisiang and jiang.. eventually wanted to get something for serene as her bday is coming.. but end up getting so much things for myself.. oh no.. i am broke again.. who can feed mi for the time being? hahas..

yeah.. tmr going to register for my driving test finally.. after all the procastination and delaying.. finally i am going to fufil it.. provided i can wake up tmr.. hahahas..

this is some of the photos i took in nab chalet.. enjoy k?=)

my pretty son being dressed up by chloe, eleven and debbie.. hahas..

suiling and mi

juliana and mi

pretty son and mi after his make-up session.. i wonder whether he's a girl in his past life

tats all folks.. update u guys more.. will be working non-stop for these few days.. looking forward to my oldie's outing on sunday! going wild wild wet... yipee =)

tired tired and tired

2006-03-02T14:59:00.000+08:00

yest i went shopping with min and cai e.. bought some tops.. then we wandered around.. after tat suiling came and meet mi.. cos she wanted to buy her hand bag.. haha.. but we juz realised that the shop had closed down in town.. sorry girl.. make ur trip to find mi wasteful.. i hope victor is okay..

after tat we went clubbing at phuture.. eventually wanted to go zouk.. but its mambo's nite there.. the music there is not to our liking.. hmm.. the drinks there is nice.. mi and suiling share a jug of midori 7-up and kurant 7-up.. nice nice.. then danced abit.. till 3 plus then go for supper then went home.. reached home at 6 plus.. which is so so so tired.. yet i need to work later.. i noe i shldn't grumble.. this is wad i want one mah.. hahahas..

photo's time! =)

mi and suiling.. she looked so cute with her fringe short.. haha =D

mi and min.. her dimples so nice=)

min, suiling and mi

xiaohei, min, suiling and mi

cai e and mi.. i think my flash light too strong liao.. sorry =P

nab staffs: suiling, amanda and mi.. i juz realised amanda worked in nab before.. hahas.. the world is juz so small...

disgusted!

2006-03-01T02:16:00.000+08:00

disgusted. this is wad i am feeling now.. saw someone's blog and found out how bastard and disgusting u can be.. oh my god! how can i be so blind last time! i dun understand.. nvm.. its over.. juz dun let mi find another bastard in this world! shoo shoo shoo! does my life only filled with bastards i wondered sometimes.. haiz.. i dun even wish u and ur girl all the best. i take back all my words. i am evil. hahas =P cos u dun deserve my blessings

feeling so down at this moment too.. at least we talked it out.. i felt much better actually.. thanks for giving mi a chance to let mi noe how u are feeling.. i will be okay after a nite's sleep.

take care guys=)

shopping day=)

2006-02-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

yeah! its payday again.. means shopping day=) but i din enjoy the process of collecting pay.. wth.. dun wish to mention anyway.. juz makes my blood boil.. hai..

anyway, i went to wing tai warehouse with suiling.. the price there is WOW! cheap cheap and cheap.. haha.. one shirt cost about 40+ yet they sell 9 bucks over there.. HOWEVER, the sizes there is big lah.. i am having so much problem fitting one tat will suit mi, so i dun need to mention abt suiling.. but anyway, we din made tat trip wasteful.. hahahas :D

suddenly, i am thinking alot of our frenship.. i tot time can cure everything.. but no.. i knew there's nothing to cure our frenship.. its dead i think.. somekind of dead.. u shld noe wad i meant.. the way u talked to mi is like i am pestering u.. okay. I'M so so so SORRY.. bloody sorry if i ever make u feel pissed.. but wadever, i dun think i mean anything to u anymore. so forget it.. my apologies are no longer effective since the day u gave mi death penalty..

u no longer give mi a chance to save back our frenship.. so i dun even bother how long tat is.. six years is basically nothing.. foolish foolish mi to think tat u will reconsider back this frenship.. but i noe u wont.. ur actions showed it so clear to mi.. so wad u said and wad u did doesn't even tally actually.. nvm, its doesn't matter to mi anyway, i can no longer gain back ur trust anyway.. so i shld haf juz delete my memory of how many promises we made together.. taiwan trip and bla bla bla.. all delete.. u dun even appreciate wad i did to u, why am i being a bloody idiot fool pestering u?

suddenly i felt like leaving NAB at this moment.. cos i dunno how to face NAB pple.. all of them keep asking mi wad happened to mi and u when i dun wish to mention it.. everytime i mention once my heart hurts once.. u will nv noe this feeling.. count mi a bloody idiot loser, i dun give it a damn.

wadever and ever, i am feeling lost suddenly. damn lost

angry yet helpless suddenly

2006-02-25T13:58:00.000+08:00

okay, let mi tell u wad had happened to mi yest.. juz a stupid and idiotic thing.. wth.. i was working eventually at level 72 at first.. cos alot of pple cancel shift and becos of some other stupid reason which i am damn bloody pissed at.. i was being transferred to station 3.. which is downstairs at level 71..

wth, i am being kicked down from level 72 i tot.. but wad can i do.. is not within my control.. the moment i came down, my right eye twitched.. this is a bad omen.. i told henry.. then he said, later sure sure got bad thing happen to u.. but i din take it to heart.. and continue to work.. station 3 was damn busy lah.. and i work there ALONE.. this is bloody shit.. wan to help mi lose weight oso can't use this way.. i feel like i can die of fatigue at any moment at that point of time.. luckily damien keep on adding pple to help mi later on..

first period of happy hour was over.. i was so happy that i can relax abit.. then during the second period of happy hour, its WORST! i can't even noe wad i am doing.. being pulled here and there by so many stupid ang moh to take order.. hey, i am working alone in my station k, can't u wait. i am damn bloody pissed. but nvm.. when i walk to the main bar to collect my bill for settlement, and wanted to leave the dance floor, an BLOODY F****** angmoh pushed mi so hard tat i stunned and stared at him angrily, he was trying to kiss his girlfren, but his girlfren retaliate and pushed him away, being so angry tat his gf danced with other guys and not allowing him to kiss her, he came to mi and grabbed my neck, pushing my face to him, trying to kiss mi. shocked and angry, i dodged my face away and pushed his face away(SHLD HAF USE MY BILL FOLDER TO SMACK HIS FACE) but i din, cos he's still a cust.. but my manager said i haf to rights to do everything to him cos he's doing something not right to mi..

this scene was been witnessed by my colleague cos he working at station 4.. feeling so angry and helpless.. i went away from the dance floor and try to find my manager.. but yest the bar was so packed and messy.. i can't even find a person i can talk to.. feeling so helpless and afraid, i din dare to walk to the dance floor and continue to work.. after that, skip pulled mi to one side with all the bouncer and that stupid ang moh.. then we went down to the security office.. actually i din wan to pursue this matter anymore, cos he din kiss mi oso..

at the security office, police came and take down my statement, after much consideration, i decided not to pursue this matter anymore and accepted that ang moh's apology, although he sounded quite stupid.. but forget it.. i dun wan to see his face anymore can liao..

long entry i got today.. haha.. but i juz felt tat everytim ei work at level 71.. sure got something bad happened, first being hit by ice block.. now this thing.. haiz.. muz go pray pray liao.. this year not good for mi lah.. all the worst things happened to mi.. but this is life i guess.. trauma by traumas in my life juz make mi stronger and independent.. maybe to an extent tat i dun wish to depend on any other pple.. cos i only trust myself..

k guys, i am alright.. dun worry for mi.. tata=)

home alone

2006-02-24T13:57:00.000+08:00

guess wad time i woke up today? 9.30am! this is shitty lah.. cos i can't get back to sleep anymore.. dunno why... maybe its becos the exams mood still not over yet and i am used to sleeping for 2 to 3 hrs a day.. thats why i woke up so early..

my parent's away for genting trip again.. leaving mi and my brother at home.. haha.. but actually i will be working.. so it doesn't make a difference.. from the time i woke up till now i haf been doing nothing.. haha.. juz surf net all the way.. trying to find some information for hair rebonding.. jiang and i decided to do rebonding again.. my hair is out of shape again lah.. haiz.. anyone noe any good and cheap rebonding muz info mi k? thanks=)

my cough is bad. it juz wont go away.. no matter wad medicine i ate, its useless. wth.. i hate the feeling of coughing, like my throat is stuck with something.. this is sucky.

okay, i'm gonna stop complaining and prepare for work liao.. need to get a new black pants too.. hahas.. update u guys another day=)

exams over!

2006-02-24T01:49:00.000+08:00

yeah! exams finally over! wee... haha.. and i am gonna start work tmr.. can't wait to start worklng.. miss my colleagues so so so much..

today i spent so much shopping.. cos i am deprived of it.. haha.. tats why muz work harder to earn my money back.. haha.. went orchard with my colleagues.. felt abit weird at first as some things changes.. but i guess i had to cope with this for the rest of my life bah.. wadever and ever, i oso dunno wat i can do to make things better. *sighs* but i think ur new hair cut is great, make u look younger even though. hahas.

went to indochine at wisma after our late dinner.. indochine's great.. with their live band there.. guys, if u finding a place to relax, my recommendation will be indochine.. haha.. and the price of the drinks there is reasonable oso.. dong, sorry that i din really talked much with u and jiang juz now.. i really apologise for tat.. cos i'm with my frens there.. dun get too upset over it okay? anything feel free to contact mi hor =)

hmm.. gonna turn in early tonite cos tmr will be working.. i'm deprived of sleep too.. cos of exams lah.. its reasonable.. nitez pple. take care=))

happy belated v day=)

2006-02-15T14:02:00.000+08:00

hey guys, i'm back blogging.. heez.. sorry.. saw some dust accumulating liao.. *wipe wipe* haha.. happy belated v day to all=) hope u all had a wonderful day yest..

my valentine's day this year was bad.. guess wad i did? stay at home study for term test for today.. wth.. supposed to be a day full of surprises and joy yet i stayed at home studying.. but nvm.. at least i did something productive.. hahas...

i'm getting so lifeless.. during exams period.. i'm missing my shopping, working and gathering times so badly.. haiz.. can time pass faster.. hope i got a remote control to fast forward time.. or maybe to reverse time back if i really can.. then i wont make all the mistakes that i cant make up now.. haiz..

i left two more exams b4 i can start working and playing hard.. had so much plans wad to do during hols.. but i juz need time and money.. haiz.. sian.. i will work hard for money..

i'm falling sick soon.. keep coughing juz now during my term test.. shoo away all the germs and virus.. i dun wanna fall sick..

okays, study hard and rest well peeps.. dun forget to spend time relaxing too.. dun be too stressed up. take care n mis ya=)

happy chinese new year, finally =)

2006-01-28T20:25:00.000+08:00

hi pple... happy chinese new year to all k? its chinese new year eve tonight.. finally.. ended my last day of work yest.. feeling kinda of relieved yet sad... cos i can finally take a break but i will be missing the nab pple so much.. this week has been a stressed yet enriching week for mi.. got interviews, tests and reports to do... and the most cruel thing i had did in my entire life... kill a chick embryo! crys.. sorry chicky..

here are some photos i haf uploaded which tells you wad i did for the entire last week.. enjoy k?

firstly, is the staff party at attica one... i really had fun even though i had a upset stomach the next day.. thanks and sorry suiling for making u worried for mi and made u fell when looking for mi.. real sorry.. i really appreciate wad u did for me.. smiles=)

me and suiling =)

me and meifang.. i miss u so much girl.. take care of urself in malaysia =)

me and my manager damien.. i juz realised his face is so red.. hahas

my piggy son and me.. thanks for drinking with mi =)

me and my manager mervin.. he looked so funny.. hee =D

team leader apple, damien, me and suiling

this is supposed to be a pic of me and vevain only, yet they came in time time to become a grp pic.. arghs. hahas.. from top:damien. left:isaac, me ,vevain and eric. bottom:mervin

okay.. now its the time for pic of my interview.. my formal wear pics.. only took some only.. haha..

stephy and me at norgan vaaz

finally we had our blazers on =)

interviewees of the day.. from left: me, peiqing, samantha, farhana and valerie

okay, now is the time for some gruelsome pics.. sorry if i made u turn vegetarian for a week.. hahas.. this is wad i did for mammalian cell technology.. need to subculture a chick embryo cells and dissect its heart, liver and skeletal muscles out.. gruelsome gruelsome and gruelsome i can say.. haiz..

the chick embryo which is still alive kicking in PBS solution.. can u see the eyes is so big.. i took it out from its shell..

the next moment.. the chick embryo is w/o its neck liao.. sorry kenneth.. i madeu snapped its neck as i really got no courage to do it.. its juz too cruel.. my tears are coming out liao..

this is wad i have did in the whole week.. exciting rite? its only nice to read words with pics.. hahas.. gonna to take a nice break during my cny and i hope no one will screwed it up.. take care and enjoy guys =))

stressed..

2006-01-22T16:09:00.000+08:00

i'm stressed.. so many deadlines and interviews and tests next weeks.. and tonight is staff party.. dun feel like going.. but its mei fang last nite in singapore liao.. i think i should go.. hai.. i cant help but feeling worst when stress comes to mi.. makes mi feel so breathless.. i dunno why am i feeling so tired at times.. maybe there's juz too much things for mi to solve and think.. but somethings are meant to be unsolved.. hai

had my blood test results.. and my antibody level is only 51.. eling, where's all ur antibodies when u took the jab in sec 3? haiyo.. i dun wan booster.. no money.. sian diao.. i will be stop working after next fri.. got too much things to cope.. and i dun wan to be lousy again..

i dun wan tears and sadness in my life anymore, GO AWAY! i had enough of them.. pls dun bother mi with all these.. all i wan is happiness in my life.. i'm SELFISH i'm sorry.. but this is human nature and situation that changes mi i think..

wadever and wadever, i gonna to get myself busy with work again.. tata~

paiN..

2006-01-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

i'm back blogging..

actually, i have no mood to blog.. cos i'm so worn down.. so tired with all the projects and work.. fatigue is my best fren now i guess.. everyday i juz need to drag myself to sch unwillingly.. "Eling, wake up, wake up, wake up!" i tell myself..

been feeling down all these while, suddenly haf a urge to go to the beach and unwind all my stress.. anyone interested in accompanying me, pls give mi a call=)

juz came back from blood test for hep B which i went with steph and michelle.. haha.. actually its not that painful, juz an ant's bite... but when i recall michelle's scene of withdrawing the blood.. i cant help but burst into laughters.. lol.. its juz so funny.. michelle, u are juz too skinny lah.. tats why no blood comes out.. i pity the doctor.. muz be having high rush of adrenaline at that point of time.. hahahaha..

tmr is suiling's bday.. i juz bought her pressie.. hope she will like it.. going victor's house for steamboat tmr to help her celebrate her bday.. hope everything turns out fine.. nite guys.. i'm sleepy liao.. =O

snEeze~

2006-01-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

its so cold! sneeze and sneeze is wad i can do now.. haiyo.. go away the stupid monsoon weather.. i need u my grandpa sun.. haha.. even my mom is grumbling everyday for the sun to come out.. juz went down to swissotel to take my pay.. as usual, i rushed down by taking cab again.. and the stupid taxi driver went from PIE. gosh. its there a exit to swissotel from PIE? i'm not a driver yet i noe this.. then he exited from eunos and take ECP in the end.. waste my $$$. aRghs.

wanted to report for my lost voucher. yet the security went for dinner. wad the.. so i haf to report tmr.. its dragging a day and a day.. so i haf to get my pay later also.. tired.. working tmr again.. hai. cramped with so so so much deadlines for projects and so much things to do.. all i need is 48 hrs a day.. grant my wish pls..

haha.. i am basically crapping. gdnites guys.. dun forget to cover ur blanket and dun kick ur blanky away!=)

sleepy..

2006-01-10T18:22:00.000+08:00

guess wad time i woke up today? 6PM! wad the... muz be the weather and due to my headache... thats why i woke up so late... eventually wanted to go down to swissotel to report for my lost casual labor voucher... but forget it.. i am too lazy to go down due to the rain.. its non-stop raining... luckily i still can claim back my money =) but need to wait for a month...

yest was hell for mi.. so mani cust crowded at my serving area... and the whole level 72 was so dark... all candles around.. heard there's something wrong with the lightings.. all the people there crowding and jumping around and the dimness made mi felt naseous.. making mi kept taking sour drinks from danny.. luckily i din puke.. and the fussy cust at table 96. really FCUK!

oh yah, thiese are some of the photos taken yest during our stay at the library, starring mi, stephanie and gen..

gen, mi and steph

steph and mi

guess i am gonna stay at home and slack the whole day. eventually wanted to get my new year clothes.. but i dun think so.. nobody to acc mi and due to the weather.. i guess i have to go on another day.. update u guys again~

cool down

2006-01-09T12:19:00.000+08:00

cool down.. this is the action we need to do now.. misunderstanding and more misunderstanding we are having everyday.. i juz wan everything to stop down first.. we are both hurt.. i noe.. i dunno how long this thing will clear.. but i believe that sooner or later, the dark clouds will clear away..

yest my mom asked abt u, when u are coming to my house for cny as usual. i was speechless.. trying to avoid this qns by pretending busy.. cos i dunno how long we will get to normal.. i noe u care for mi juz like i do.. wondering whether u noe how to walk in the crowd where u will get confused..

dun write anymore entry to reply mi back.. or it will be another misunderstanding.. take it that my english is poor that i had misunderstood u. i dun wish to haf more misunderstanding. cool down is all we need.. may we be strong and live life to the fullest everyday =) tears are part of growing up i guess. take care too.

speechless

2006-01-08T22:19:00.000+08:00

seen ur blog.. independent is wad u trying to be now.. maybe u think this is a good way out.. maybe this is wad i shld do too.. i am depending too much on u in the past.. now i learnt to be alone and face all the troubles by myself.. no choice.. tears juz drop down when i think that our promise to taiwan after graduation will vanish.. everything will vanish.. forget it i tell myself.. control ur tears, i struggled every moment.

maybe we've changed. i dunno.. maybe u wont need mi anymore in ur life. if that's so. i guess i had to accept it.. but i juz dun wish a moment of folly caused a lifetime of regrets. i dunno how long this awkward moment will be. but i will hang on.. till everything is fine again.. dun worry about mi.. i will still put my smile on everyday cos the world doesn't owe mi a living.. i shldn't bring sorrows to other's life too..

how i wish we can go to work together again.. yet i'm all alone on the bus.. viewing the sceneries by myself.. nobody to share my day with mi like we used to.. i am juz missing lots of them.. u juz wont noe. i'm not arguing who's right or wrong now. i dun need to noe who's right or wrong now. all i wan is the FRENSHIP back. if u wan mi to throw my face away to get this frenship back, i will by all means.

i had to stop guys. the screen is blurring when i type every sentence. i'm weak i admit. nitez =)

tired, tired and tired...

2006-01-08T15:23:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired.. juz finished doing all the housechores.. my mom fell and sprained her legs.. so i had to take over all the housechores.. i shldn't grumble i noe.. but i am juz tired.. cos i got too much things to do.. so juz bear with my grumbles lah..

tmr will be my interview for my ddct project... we are the last group.. from 5.30 to 6.. luckily i'm working at 7 tmr.. yest i managed to get royal salute 21 years bottle.. it's so nice.. haha.. had a bad stomach yest.. cos i drink on empty stomach.. cos meifang was down on her mood.. all the drinks she drank was double shot.. i'm afraid that she will get drunk, so i drank half of her share.. in the end, i got my stomach kicking the whole nite.. hai..

becos of ur sentence of 'u dunno how to face mi', i tried to make the best situation for u.. i am NOT saying i'm very "sacrificing", dun take my words wrongly.. cos i care abt how u feel.. i dun wan u to feel awkward or wad.. maybe its good for us not to face each other for awhile.. i dunno..

met siang at design canteen on fri.. he said u told him everything and think that its my fault this time round, so take it its my fault den.. i dun wish to explain anymore.. i dun wish to linger around with this matter anymore.. cos it juz make mi feel so down everytime..

time to get myself busy with work again.. wish mi good luck for tmr interview ;)

-_-"""

2006-01-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

pay day again.. after my colour and compo, i rush down to swissotel with suiling and victor.. tommy wasn't with mi afterall to get my pay. i wonder why we shld ever quarrelled abt him.. silly mi. he forgot to bring his voucher.. but nvm.. its all over.. i got no energy to haf any more emotions to get angry with him too. NO USE getting angry oso. juz waste my energy.

change topic. after getting our pay, mi and suiling went to suntec to shop around... bought my new year shoes too.. so i can dun worry abt that liao.. oh yah, i bought a shirt for my bro too.. hope u like it.. happy belated birthday anyway~

tmr having NE forum.. from 3 to 5.. luckily i can finally clear NE forum by this sem.. kinda relieved.. having at lect at 8. yawns~ sleepy, wadever things gonna happen, i gonna leave it to tmr.. so tired'

i'm alright

2006-01-05T12:37:00.000+08:00

i am alright guys. dun worry about me.. juz need time to settle down.. thanks for ur concern =)
saw ur blog juz now and all the memories of u and me came back again. and there u go, my tears came down again.. i admit i am silly, not knowing that u care so much for mi.. i am juz foolish enough to be used by him again and again.. i noe it hurts u.. it hurts mi too.. but whenever i noe he needs help, i juz cant help it but to help him again. i dunno why. its not i like him. i am sure i dun like him now. maybe i am too used to it. give mi time to put things down. i am sure i can. believe mi.

i dunno how am i going to cross this barrier btw us.. arguements are common btw frens. and i hope this major arguement will make our frenship stronger.. i wish that i will still be the one that u can confide in and depend on.. but i juz dunno whether this can happen again..

frens need no apology as u meant, but i think whenever things come to the worst, its always good to apologise. or else things will get worst if days go by.. accumulate more and more.. fri is coming soon yet i dunno wad kind of expression i shall put on when seeing u. maybe its a time for u to cool down tats why u dun wanna meet mi.. den its okay den.. i shall go myself.. anyway, we will still meet each other in the canteen..

u definitely haf the rights to interfere in my life, cos u are my best fren.. i need someone to guide my life u shld noe.. its not i misunderstand u, its ur words that make mi misunderstood u.. i nv tot u will end this frenship thats why i said i cant IMAGINE that u wrote that on ur blog.. okay, enough liao... shldn't say more..

humans are good actor and actress at times.. that include u and mi.. we still haf to face the world no matter wad.. nobody like to see our sullen faces everyday.. there's always a softer side of human but we cant see..

i nv told siang abt wad happened btw us. not even dict.. i juz hide everything inside of mi.. wishing that nothing had happened.. i didn't want everyone to noe that we are quarrelling.. its not some good thing i can share.. so why shld i say out? might as well bury it away.

i am glad that xiaoxin is alright again =) i din noe why is he losing fur too.. maybe too stressed? i dunno.. juz wish that health will be with it everyday.

i'm not working on tues i guess.. cos wed start school at eight.. will be booking shift later on.. think next week will be working on mon, fri and sat..

i appreciate that u cared for mi so much.. that i shld received better treatment. juz give mi time.. now all i can say is i need time to think things out.. afterall, too much things had happened........

relieF

2006-01-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

i wont end this frenship juz becos of him. NEVER! u shld noe.. sorry for misunderstanding u. this will be the last sorry.. i wrote all that stuffs cos i tot u are going to end this frenship. i dun think i shall elaborate anymore.. its time to let things cool down and stop.. or else the more things we talk, the more misunderstanding we will haf. its a no-end hole. tata guys

forget it

2006-01-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

go ahead... get as angry as u can... i am tired... too tired to think of anything... surrounded by problem and more problems everyday, i dunno how long i can withstand.. if u really wan to let go of this frenship. there's nothing i can do but remain silent and support u... I CANT IMAGINE OUR FRENSHIP WOULD BE THAT FRAGILE. juz utterly disappointed.

alone won't be a word for u as i said. its not he's impt or wad.. is i AGREED him first this time round. WHY CANT U JUZ LISTEN FOR THE LAST TIME? hai. u can think that i put him more impt then u then GO AHEAD. i dun wanna explain no more. u nvr wan to listen. and gave mi a death penalty. so i juz haf to accept it i guess.

THANKS for everything den.. i guess.. all the happy, crazy and blissful moments.. and being for there for mi always. and SORRY for my unreasonable times. u noe i nv ever wanted to end this frenship. wad u wrote to mi was hoping our frenship last for 4 years, 40 years and 400 years. yet its HIM that pulled down everything. i can't imagine. really cant IMAGINE u said that u wont reconsider our frenship. its SIX YEARS of frenship yet its brought down in few seconds. i am juz too shocked when i see these words appearing from ur blog. is ur decision then. i cant do anything but give u my blessings then.

this is not a good year for mi. all the worst thing is coming to me one by one. juz come lah all the shitty stuffs. better bring mi down and let mi disappear from this world. LEAVE MI ALONE

wad can i do?

2006-01-04T10:39:00.000+08:00

i am not saying u are UNREASONABLE.. dun take my words wrongly... okay, my word and actions dun tally. i admit.. BUT its all becos i wanted him back as my best fren.. u noe how sad am i when he treats me from a close fren to a hi-bye fren? u wont noe how i feel inside. it juz hurts me deeply..

i dun wanna regrets in my life.. thats include i cherish all of my frens.. including U. u are always there for me and i definitely dun wanna lose u.. i dun wan 6 years of frenship to go down the drain juz becos of HIM. i dun wan.

u noe i will be there for u always. no matter wad.. i NEVER EVER will leave u out on ur own u shld noe.. if i ever let u feel that, i'm sorry. i noe u are tired of my apologies.

there are times when i wanted to cry and breakdown but i juz can't. my house is juz too limited. i dun haf my own privacy.. my dad is unreasonable for wadever reason and i dun haf one to speak to yest. all i can do is sleep and sleep and wet my pillow.. wishing that i wake up i will feel better.. but it juz didn't. i HATE to accumulate problems. u shld noe, it make my life miserable. BUT u like it the other way, so wad can i do?

wad a day =(

2006-01-03T21:20:00.000+08:00

SAD... this is the mood that i am carrying now... i din noe u are planning to take pay with me today... i noe ur wish is to go haf a nice dinner with me... i had even found out there is a fish & co in suntec and wanted to meet u there this thurs after i took my pay with him... u shld noe mi and him is TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE ANYMORE.. u told me u taking pay tmr... i really din noe u can make it today... and i agreed with him to take pay with him on thurs.. i dun wan to break agreements... i dun like to break agreements... but i dunno wad to say now... i'm sorry...

i'm not pinpointing whose fault it is now... and i appreciate u rushing ur projects to go take pay with mi.. hai... wad i say now is useless... u are too angry to listen... all i can do is to wait for the right moment to apologise... u noe i cant afford to lose a fren like u...

its not i put him infront of u.. i ADMIT i liked him.. BUT thats in the past... maybe my behaviour haven change for him u will think but i am REALLY putting him down... cos i noe things are getting impossible btw the two of us... the attitude he gave me.. did i deserve this for wad i had did for him? its pointless to say out everything now... i dun wan to make things ugly anymore... i will juz haf to wait for my next mr.RIGHT i think...

anyway, i'm sorry for not knowing ur efforts and think u are unreasonable... really SORRY. i hate arguements. it juz made my day miserable and bitter.. and tiring..

had severe headache juz now yet need to rush my color and composition.. took two panadols but it doesnt seems to work.. dunno why.. thanks jasmine for ur reference, i appreciate alot! =)

the screen is like moving to me now.. think i better go rest.. hai.. anyways, happy 22nd birthday kor! i owe u a pressie and i hope u enjoyed ur celebration =)

hAppY nEw YeAr~

2006-01-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

happy new year~! i am late again! sorry sorry... pls forgive me... haha.. hmm... how did i spent my new year's eve? haha... as expected... i am working! haha... new asia bar was so so so packed until i cant walk... everybody juz cramped up to level 72 to seee the nice fireworks at the esplanade.. its nice lah... when the fireworks was came out.. all our staffs ran to the cashier corner to view it too... how nice...

i'm sorry guys if my temper has been bad these few days... i mean to my colleagues... had to bear with my temper... cos i am quite down on my luck these few days... i really din mean it if i shouted at u or wad...

as i looked back, i had made so much mistakes during the last year... i shall not make them anymore... making a mistake once is acceptable, but twice is juz too foolish... but humans tend to be foolish at times... hai...

oh yah... today i went queensway with jiang, cai'e, zhen dong, wei siang, benedict, serene and chua... so much to shop... but i juz shop for earring only... its mainly guys stuffs there... so i din managed to get anything for mi... haha... BUT almost all of us did a temporary tattoo which is so cool... and its cheap too... can last abt 5-7 days...

tattoo at the back of my neck...

cool huh? haha... too bad only last temporary... i gonna turn in early... so tired... tmr gonna start school again... sian =( tata guys! =)

hEhe =D

2005-12-29T15:24:00.000+08:00

yAwnz~ so tired... yest slept at like 4am... then wooke up at 2 plus... but i still feel like i am not getting enough sleep... muz be becoz of yest woke up too early juz to dye my hair... i kiinda like my hair colour... hy, dun be too sad... urs colour is oso nice... but its juz too bright... i dun like too bright... cos i dun wan my matriculation card to get consficated everyday later... haha...

yest after work we went geylang to eat supper... was a nice and filling supper... got six dishes... so much... but we nv failed to finish it... oh no... getting fatter... haha... but the unwelcomed guests over there made our eating experience a "exciting" one... got so many COCKROACHES,LIZARDS AND RATS! juz made my hair standing everytime i saw one crawling pass us... haiyo...

haha... gonna prepare for work again... update u guys again~ =)

pAy dAy aGaiN~

2005-12-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

it's pay day for me again~ yeaH... the queue for the pay collection was like so long! we waited for 30 minutes to collect our pay... but its all worth it... haha.. today i woke up at 9am... so early for project meeting in sch... so tired... cos i reached home at 1 plus yest nite... went to chua's house for gathering with jiang and siang they all... haf a enjoying and relaxed nite out... we juz slack at his house chit chat, watch movie and drink... thanks guys~ i enjoyed myself... thanks dicky for ur vodka~ smiles=)

oh yah... today after collecting pay with hy... we went for a big feast at dining at sakae... at city link mall... the food there is so nice... haf such a great dinner~ yUm yUm... hehe... so satisfied... then we juz shop around suntec area...

hmmm.. i gonna meet hy to dye our hair tmr... haha.. so excited... so long nv put colours to my hair... wad colour shld i dye? hmmm... lets see tmr lah.. i oso dunno yet... starting work tmr again... all the way till sun non-stop... cos i need $$$ to sail mi thru the new year period... this is tiring but i still can take it... gonna bath and turn in early... i am sleepy~ take care guys =)

mErRy cHrIsTMaS~

2005-12-26T13:14:00.000+08:00

merry x'mas everyone! i am sorry, i noe i am late... haha... but i got no time to update my blog these few days... was busy working and working... x'mas at new asia bar wasn't that happening actually... the cover charge was like 45 bucks per person on x'mas eve... it includes only one drink and one party pack... i wonder who will come in... haha...

enough of work... this is boring... hmm... wad i received for x'mas.. sui ling gave me something for the body shop... its my favourite actually... moonflower products... thanks girl~ huiying bought mi a billabong bag... great taste u have... thanks!

oh yah... i sprained my back... its kinda okay liao now... but the stupid sinseh kept rubbing my back until blue-black... haiyo... pain sia... thanks hy for accompanying me there... i noe u are tired... thanks alot really! smiles=)

term break was here... yet i am packed with work only... i feel like i haven been enjoying myself these few months... feel like i am not living actually... all i live is to work and work and work... maybe i will feel alive when i am shopping only... my last movie was like harry potter? haha...i cant rem how long was tat... hai...

i am still wondering how am i going to complete my cds stuff... colour and composition... its painting stuff and i am lost... how am i going to use water colour to make a painting out? i am not that kind of art people.... my right brain is not good... oh no...

anyway~ enough of my grumbling... gonna do some work and slack at home today! i am not working~ heehee.. merry x'mas once again~ =)

yEah =)

2005-12-22T22:25:00.000+08:00

term test finally over~ yeaH! haha... juz went to bugis to shop for x'mas pressies... spent so much $$$... but luckily i haf cleared all the x'mas pressies i need to buy... smiles =) thanks cindy, kenneth and michelle for browsing the whole bugis with me... u guys are the best~

starting from tmr, i need to start working and slog like hell again... i need $$$!for my new year's clothes and stuffs u see... haha... money is superficial, however without money, there's lots of things that cant be done, sadly -_-" but nvm, i miss NAB pple alot too... so its okay... i am looking forward towards x'mas~

my wishing list i wan to buy alot of things:-
1) tops
2) botooms
3) shoes
4) accessories (earrings, necklaces and bracelets)
5) short jacket
6) wallet

haha... understand why i need to work liao? its understandable with all the things i need. smiles =)

oh yah, i tried a personality quiz which is quite accurate i think, thanks hy for the webby =)

*Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
*The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
*Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
*The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
*Your views on education:Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
*The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
*How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
*What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
*Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

true huh? hehe =D

u guys may like to try it out too, this is the webby :http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

hmm... i gotta go wrap all the pressies liao... update u guys again =))

stresseD~

2005-12-17T16:45:00.000+08:00

i'm back blogging again~ hee... yest did cip for four hours in suntec city... actually we are juz shopping around cos we all asked our friends to help us buy the coupons.. one coupon is like 5 bucks... i wonder whether any stranger will buy such coupons from us... so we went to marina square to shop for clothings as usual... haha... everywhere is like having sales... cos of x'mas... its so unfair that everyone is getting into the mood of x'mas yet we need to mug for our stupid term test... tp has poor organisation plans i have to say...

oh yah... this is wad mi and gen did during lab on tues... cos we are like damn bored... haha...

this is gen's artpiece...

while this is mine~ haha...

sorry dr chang... but lab can get real bored after lunch... pls forgive us... anyway, there's so much gloves in the drawer we had found out... =P

i am missing the music and the fun i am having in NAB... although i get to rest and study for my term test... i am having the 'i miss NAB' syndrome... i will be back to work after term test! looking forward to it...

the shopping list i have for x'mas present is quite long... oh no... haha... but i haf no time to shop for them... there's midnight shopping tonite... should i go? haha... i dunno... let mi decide first... too much things haven done yet... take care guys =)

a day full of tots...

2005-12-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

hmm.. a tiring day i had today... rushing projects over here and there like mad! why there is so much projects! i juz dun understand... hai... stress is piling up.. term test is like so near yet i did nothing for my revision... sorry hy, for not accompanying u to the sinseh... i was meeting up my mom to get something.. really sorry... rest well at home and dun move so much k?? =)
i saw my ex-bf in biz canteen today.. actually i dun feel anything more for him... its juz i dun really wan to see him... dunno why, maybe its becos i dunno how to face u... but at least i noe he's living happily ever after... tats a good thing... i dun wish to look back cos it hurts... thanks for everything and sorry for my unreasonable times, sorry for letting u feeling like a replacement and everything... its juz fated that we are not meant to be... anyway, all the best to u and ur girl =)
as for tommy, i am sorry that i sounded a threat to u.. u noe i was juz joking... wad a mess i created myself... i dunno how am i going to clear this up... u treat mi like hi-bye fren now... is our frenship really that fragile i wondered? why everytime u gave mi a death penalty without hearing wad i am going to say? how i wish nothing ever changes, that i could turn back time... but its juz too impossible to say anything now... thanks for always being there for mi when i needed u... i really appreciate it alot... i will juz miss the times i haf with u... hai... sleepy... cya guys ;)

heLLo

2005-12-11T13:51:00.000+08:00

this is the blog tat gennymoo helped me to create... thanks girl! muacks=) juz finished work 8 hrs ago... so tired... luckily not working for next week... or else i will die of fatigue... i was supposed to work for nab yest, yet they transfer mi to cityspace to be barback... nice is to say as barback, not nice is juz glass-disher cum runner... so tiring, they got so much glasses to wash... hai.. now my hands are aching... cannot make it... ddct term test is next week and i haven started anything! i better start studying... i am slacking too much... tired tired tired is wad i am feeling now... how i wish i can sleep for 12 hrs a day... but my stupid sch timetable will nv allow... tata guys.. i gonna do work again...